Bestselling author Kristan Higgins is a mama bear, unabashedly in love with her kids. When she visited the library last night on her last book tour stop before heading home she spoke with great emotion about her family. She had a late miscarriage in her 20’s that makes her appreciate her two healthy children even more than she might have otherwise. She said something like grief can break your heart wide open and make it even bigger.
Most of you know the challenges we’ve faced over the years and I mentioned that Gage was having nightmares for a few weeks and the doctor wanted me to watch him. She recommended us to a pediatric neurologist so yesterday we went to our appointment to discuss the nightmares and the shaking with a very nice doctor. After about 15 minutes he, very nicely, recommended a 3 day video EEG. Gage checks into the hospital on a Sunday afternoon, gets hooked up with all the wires, and then stays there in his room until Wednesday afternoon. Needless to say I was completely floored, not at all expecting this. It seemed so extreme. I was a bundle of nerves, anxiety and a lot uncertainty. I even let myself have a glass of wine over dinner with Jason as we discussed it. Then it was time to leave to see Kristin and I did. Because I needed it.
She was every bit as personable as I’d hoped she’d be based on her presence on social media. She told funny stories, got a little choked up when discussing her miscarriage, answered questions, and spent time with each of us even though the line was long and it was getting late. I made some friends in the line while we waited to meet her and left the library feeling 100% better about life, deciding all worries could wait until morning.
Well, it’s morning and I’m still feeling okay. And I bet if I read one of her books I’ll feel even better. Gage is fine and the hospital stay could answer a lot of questions I’ve had over the years. Keeping my 8 year old in a small room with wires on his head for 72 hours still causes me much anxiety, but I’m putting off the worry until tomorrow. He isn’t scheduled until next month so I can keep the worry away one day at a time for awhile.
Thanks Kristin for getting me over the initial panic 🙂